Coming up for air

After a posting dry spell as long as the one I've just had what does one say? Kind of like when you suddenly stop doing things with a friend you saw all the time and bump into them at the store months later. The unspoken questions linger around the ensuing conversation, but rarely get asked outright, "Did I do something?", "You don't like me anymore?", "What really happened?". I suppose we really don't want to know as honest answers could potentially speak volumes about the core of our being which hurt too much or on the other hand we might find out their kid joined a traveling hockey team and they spend 3 days a week on the road plus weekends. The risk of the former happening enough to keep us from going down this road in the first place, so we end up talking about, work, the weather, ... and go back to shopping.

In this case I've gone through a period where life's events swept over me and engulfed me in the stream. No, I didn't wind up in the hospital or anything like that, but a lot of stuff happened all at once. I haven't spent much time at home over the past few months, something my cat reminds me of frequently. Blogging an intense activity for me as I'm a slow writer so a post of any length takes hours to create. Over the past few months I've generated lots of e-mails/newsletters of sorts which have taken away the time I normally would use to write up posts.

I often wonder when I look at folks like Noel who I suspect packs much into a day than I do, yet puts up a good 2 or 3 posts a day if I'm not pushing myself hard enough. Yet, it's where I find myself. I imagine if I got a closer look at Noel's, Dan's, ... lives in detail I'd see they have areas they struggle in that aren't an issue for me. It just happens that regular blogging something I struggle to do, but something they evidently find no problem to work into their lives.

Hopefully those who do follow my blog will forgive me for not being more like them in this area.